next morning we woke up and cooked our own breakfast. It's really fun to cook and eat with friends..ahaha..though some food is either too salty or just plain no taste...still the warmth of friendship is there..ahaahha =) anyway, we continues again our journey driving all over the place, caught a few bugs...and when it's time to check out from our apartment we head back..packed our stuff and checked out...then we drove around again to tanah rata...met another bunch of school friends who came up to have holidays..so fun...then we decided that we eat lunch back in KL...so off we go heading back to KL...

Driving down is super dangerous coz it's raining really heavy...sometimes i was struggling to see the road but Thank god for preserving our lives. =) Praise the Lord! Halfway through stopped by at the waterfalls to have a look coz qian ying was feeling quite dizzy so she asked us to stop by for a while and it happen to be by the waterfalls..so all of us went down to see the waterfalls...(note: we drove 2 cars, me the wira and min jun the ranger) it was really nice and when approach the waterfall it's really windy...ahh...wonder of God's creation =)

Continued our journey back down...when we hit the highway it was raining quite heavily..but Min Jun was so kind as to drive his car behind to "protect" my wira..ahaha..I feel so protected..saw a few accidents along the way..buses and trucks speeding pass us...quite a scary scenario..ahaha...well...at least i'm still back in one piece..Amen to that!

after unloading our luggages we went to Genki Sushi in 1 Utama to have our dinner! so fun!! ehehe...never been to Genki and haven't been eating sushi for a looooooooonnnnnnnggggg time..ehehhee..

today is the day to give back the rented car..i'm gonna miss it..Had headache today the wholeday...and had bible study with helene and sharon along with esther and anna..we went Sushi King to have our dinner! wahh!! two Sushi Meals within 2 days! not bad eh? ehehe..there's a form 4 waiter @ Sushi King kinda interested in Sharon...keep on interrupting our bible study with question...mostly to Sharon..ahahha! so it's obvious la...

aahh...holidays!

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Today sharon and i went to st mary kl on monday at 4 pm..(actually we are suppose to be there at 2..but then..eheh) to help clean up..but then by the time we reach there they finish cleaning up the place..*oOps* so we started doing the name tags loh..thank God sharon and i prepared the materials..all ready cut and stuff..just need to write and paste kinda thing..if not we'll be doing the name tags late into the night!..at 7.30 pm we went to makan dinner nearby then went back making the name tags again..finished making the name tags at around 11 something pm..ahh..so tired..went to sleep while the other group leaders still staying up and do the name tags..i so bad la..eehe..go sleep first...

2nd day...woke up super super early to prepare for registration and stuff...campers were coming in at around 7 am!! so was bz doing registration while grace and sharon and other campers help other campers to bring their HUGE luggages to the dorms. then after registration finished we went to meet at the canteen to have a briefing session. after that straight went for session 1. our camp speaker was mr. john kurian from india...our theme was "The Joy of the Lord is our strength..Nehemiah 8:10" His talk was good...got all the points written down in my camp book..will refer to it someday again.

we have to choose which hobby i would like to go but quite hard to decide la..got so many fun hobbies like making plaster of paris..cooking..puppetry..self defense...line dancing..scrungy making..anyway..of all things i chose self defense..hmm..should have choose plaster of paris..my kind of hobbies...but nevertheless i've learned something la..i joined the "No Apologies" workshop and this is like the most fun workshop ever ..though the speaker..Mr. Aaron have to rush due to the time constraint...ahaha..we got this pledge card at the end of the workshop...this card holds a big significance in my life..so better cherish it la..

games were interesting but quite unorganized..ehehe..especially the water games..can see that the campers really enjoyed this games compared to the other games they've organized. the food there in camp was EXCELLENT! this is the only camp that serves super good home cook food!! ahaha...delicious..yum yum..and they served 6 meals a day..6 MEALS!! i've gained a few kgs after the camp..sad la..but yet satisfying..eheheh =) we got this candlelight service and all groups are supposed to prepared a sketch..we have this really nice sketch..but our group members was talking quite softly..(the stage is open air and we hae no mics) so most of the campers couldn't really get the message..but nevertheless we had fun and i was acting as Mr. Carey...supposedly very rich..owns a few mansion in hollywood..bollywood..mollywood..ahaha..funny la..

met lots of girls there...got to know some of them really well and it's been really fun!...but i feel sad la coz i overheard some of the campers bad-mouthing me coz i was a harsh leader..sighz...dun think i'll be a leader next time..maybe won't go also la..ehehe...got a towel and a booklet about prayers as a token of appreciation for being a group leader..after the whole camp got leader's meeting..argh! at that time i was so super tired!! wanna sleep..ehehe..anyway..had a meeting and miss moey kinda lecture us la..pointing our mistakes and stuff like that..when it comes to prayer..ehehe..you know la...people pray very long ma..and plus everybody was tired...so during prayer one of the leader fell asleep..ehehe..cute la..but she manage to wake up before miss moey finishes her prayer..so the meeting ended around 1 something...so i was like YES!! can GO HOME!! but then sharon told me that the taxi man is coming around 3 pm!! aiya..have to wait somemore..ehehe..something funny happened..when frances and other people was going out for lunch before they go home...they invited us to join them..at that time we (sharon, pris and i) thought we are moneyless..so we decline by saying.."it's ok..it's ok..thank u" and gave a huge smile..and frances thought we are up to something cheeky..ahaha..then when frances they all are gone for a few minutes...suddenly sharon was excited coz she found money in her bag...ahaha..Praise God! so i contributed my 1 ringgit left..and all together we got 10 bucks! enough for 3 os uf to go eat lunch..ehehe...praise God for that! after eating lunch..finally the taxi man came and off we went to go home! but we have to go to church for worship practice so we have no time to rest in between..we were so tired...sharon and pris fell asleep in the taxi while i was struggling to keep awake just in case something happens la...we are stuck in a jam for more than an hour!! finally reached sharon's house..and ah liang came and pick us up to go church..after church practice we went to uncle Chris house for caroling..erm..not really caroling la..but kinda just go there and help sing carols for their evangelistic party...had turkey..ehehe..and spaghetti..and other food...delicious!! finally came back....ta pau some food home ..and now online blogging about my week...ahaha..how i miss my comp!

Yay I'm back i'm back! i'm so happy! and tired! eheheh

Friday, October 27, 2006

Went shopping in 1 Utama with Priscilla and my mommy. I've got a pair of new sports shoes! whee! i'm so excited. Other than that, we couldn't find the things we wanted and we just decided to leave the mall after walking aimlessly for hours.
Stayed overnight in Priscilla's house with Rachael and Christine, had a short music practice for Merdeka's presentation in church. Had a crazy night with the girls. haha. we just laughed and laughed and laughed...

Tuesday.
WOke up at 6 am. sigh. it's really early for a holiday but anyway, we are attending Study Camp in Aunt Sow Yoong's office which is a really fun time because we manage to spend 5 hours studying together and at the same time had fun! Kevin Thomas is working there and he's such a joker lah. And all of a sudden he got lots of daughters...me included..hahah. such a nice fellow...He's a jolly good fellow oh he's a jolly good fellow.lalala..hahaha.
Went back to Priscilla's house for a full band practice. Some didn't turn up but we had a good time of practice though i believed we have created a phenomenon called NOISE POLLUTION. haha. It's a really fun band coz we have instruments like flute (Rachael), Saxophone(Simon), violin (Priscilla), cello (me!), piano (Jonathan), bass/percussion (Joshua), classical guitar (Eu Bing), acoustice guitar (Lordson), Voice(s) (Christine and Pn. Julie). yupz, a really interesting band we've got there. haha
and we had a really nice dinner cooked by Kak Leni! *clap clap clap*
Came home, Hock Jeen called to have a chat and the funny thing is, i was so tired i practically fell asleep while talking to him..haha. funnylah.

Wednesday.
Went to have breakfast with Aunty Poh Gaik in Burger King. Had a fruitful conversation with her about ministries and other things. After that we (my bro and I) rushed to fetched Rachael and to Priscilla's house for another round of band practice. Praveen came and visited us! so exciting! He helped my in my cello playing and yeah, he likes playing the cello too! yay! *though he don't know how to play but he can sing!* PLayed for hours and we had late lunch, prayers and devotion by Pn. Julie and now here I am blogging. I'm suppose to pack my clothes for mission trip..but i'm just won't budge from the computer..lazy..

oklah...so pray for me as i go to Sg. Lembing for a 4 day mission trip alright? I won't mind a few sms-es to keep my company! hehe.

::Phoebe called me and she was so excited because she found out my mom is a babysitter and her sister is looking for one...it's a real testimony so i shall type out the testimony soon..::

::Juwita's song is really nice to hear...go vote for her songs in Hitz. Fm...same goes for Altered Frequency's song lah. oh yeah, AF will be performing in Latte @ 8 in Pyramid on Thursday (2nd September) so go and support them!::

::The friendship thing is still not good with that certain someone...still praying about it::

I've been pondering a lot about friendship lately. I have no idea why but somehow my mind just seem fixed onto this term for a pretty long while.
I was wondering about how some of them have grown, some moved on, some stayed, some lost touch, some took advantage, some loved, some cared, some did both, some gossiped, some stabbed...and the list goes on.

My mind ran flashbacks on most people I've met throughout my life. It's like watching silent movie; no sounds, only actions. As I watch these flashbacks, my heart aches with anger, sadness, betrayal, loneliness yet my heart can be filled with joy, love, happiness, bliss. The word 'friend' is indeed powerful - having the power to bring out emotions in one individual in such a short time.

Friends. Somehow I felt we humans tend to overused it until we lost the true meaning of friendship. Literal definition of friendship can be found in the dictionary (go look it up yourself! hehe) but we define our own meaning of friendship. For me, friendship means people who are in your life, being together through thick and thin, being honest with one another, sharing love and sorrow with one another...Oh, I guess I was being idealistic after all.

What I've experienced is totally different from what I expected it to be. What I thought could be forever turned out to be short-lived. What I thought to be an honest and truthful friendship turned to be betrayal, lies and unforgiveness. Some which I never thought it would never meant to be changed for what is happiness and joy. Some of which I thought was unreal changed into something solid, long-lasting.

The total irony. Whoa.

Some of my bitter experiences were being called a 'bitch' by so-called 'friends'. Being left out because I don't fit in. Being scorned because of my [super] size. Not invited to parties. Being 'crowned' with 'The Worst Hairstyle Award' by my classmates. Being taken advantage [a lot!] Yes, it all seemed so trivial to you but it scarred me...a lot, I carried the scars in my life even until now. The hurt just won't go away.

But I've learnt some things about myself through these sad, bitter experience: I found myself to be a very proud and egoistic person, a show-off, a loud bitch who wouldn't know how to stop yakking.

Through these, I've learnt to mellow down.

Some of my happier experiences were just being accepted for who I am, loved me for who I am, willing to share the joys and sorrows with one another, not materialistic with one another and doesn't mind going an extra mile to help one another.

Some of my really good friends are not afraid to rebuke me in my ways. I'm grateful. At least I know that they cared a lot about me to tell me in front of my face than just to gossip and backstab me.

I'm guilty as charged too. I was never a perfect, nice or good friend to most people I met. Just mere acquaintances, saying hi and bye. A facade still exists in between us. Probably it's me, probably it's them. We'll never know until we really start to have the desire to know one another.

Anyhow, I'm grateful for friends, good or bad, that God had placed in my life. In every friend, there's a lesson to learn, a character to build. I'm grateful for people whom I've met briefly but probably will not be able to meet again. I'm thankful for people who just came and left my life just like that.

I'm just grateful. Though I still harbour some resentment [forgive me God] against some people, I need to learn to forgive an let go. A hope in me is to mend all friendship that was broken.

Friendship, now and forever.